so, today started out pretty slow. which is totally okay, because i had my first week of work & i’m totally entitled to sleeping in until 9 AM on the weekend (aren’t we all?).
by that point–after a shower & several facebook videos, however, i realized i was up later than the rest of the world & it was already moving through the day. so, i was faced with the question of what to do for the rest of my day. it was at that moment that a tinge of loneliness set in. not too great, but enough to make me need to get something done. so i cleaned the house & set out to write my book. i was really set in on getting something done, but, as discussed in a previous blog: shit happens.
my microsoft office word would not open. multiple error messages & restarts happened in the course of twenty minutes, so i almost decide to give up, lay back in bed & sleep the day away.
i have to ask myself now, how many times i’ve given up when things have become inconvenient, not hard?
many. many. many times.
what drove me to clean our apartment that morning that couldn’t keep propelling me through a slight inconvenience?
a lot of times, i forget to question the validity of my failures. was this failure my fault, or do i need to view it as a setback in a grander scheme of things?
this computer issue wasn’t my fault, by any means. i was viewing it as such, but i’m decisively too hard on myself. instead of asking what was wrong with me, i should have looked further into what was wrong with the computer.
but now i’m writing, & all is well, yes?
yes?
& to boot, i got a pretty cute picture of my cat out of the mix. enjoy.